I met someone 3 years ago through my work and although I was much younger than him I felt a very odd connection. I was not attracted to him, and I thought him to be weird and arrogant at first and he didn't really give me the time of day in the beginning either. After about 3 months he had a show for his artwork at a tea shop and I decided to come along with other co-workers. I met his wife there and learned about his little girl. I felt uneasy for some reason around him, like there was this unavoidable connection that didn't make sense. He would just do this thing were he'd stare at me when I would talk or do anything almost as if he was observing me. This was not in a sexual way. This went on for about the first year. I work in a different area than him at work so I didn't see him a whole lot, but when I did was unbelievable the feeling and connection we had. It was like an unspoken alliance or something. To make a long story short, 3 years later I still work with him and the connection has gotten very strong. When we look in eachother's eyes we have this mutual understanding as if we are one. It's actually like I can read his mind and it's only gotten stronger. For instance, I work an hour later than him on Friday's and I was told to clean the section were he and the other guys work for the last hour and a half of the day. We talked and when it was time for him to go home he said goodbye and everybody left. I was left alone to finish cleaning. I usually turn on my favorite music on the stereo when nobody's around while I clean and after about 10 minutes after they left I could still feel that he wasn't gone and he was going to come back. I decided I must be crazy so I started to walk over to the radio to turn it on and all of the sudden he walked back in because he forgot something. I feel like I operate on the same wave length or something as he does. I always know exactly how he feels and what he's thinking. I feel like I need him and when I'm away I can't stop thinking about him. When I go away for a few days he always wants to know where I've been. I by no means want to break up his relationship or his family, but I don't know if I can avoid this. It feels like I have known him in another life time. I have met so many people in my lifetime, but I have never experienced anything like this. It's as if I'm not attracted to his outer appearance as much as I am just in love with his spirit. What should I do? It really is affecting me.
I read up on what you're talking about and I think you may be right. I actually woke up in the middle of the night last night thinking of him and I said in my mind to him "I love you". I went on thinking about something else for a second and I heard very clearly "oh, I love you too ___". It was his voice as clear as day, but in a tone I am not used to. I know I don't have to do anything, but I don't know if I can go my life without him.
I understand so much better after reading about twin souls and all of that. It's helped because now I know why I feel the way I do and I also know that it would really never work between us in an actual "relationship" physically. He already has his life and his family and I will never fit in with what he's established in this lifetime. We will always be connected spiritually and I will be there when he needs it (which happens often) and that's what it will be. The strong draw I have towards him is explained now and I know that it isn't because I "love him" in the normal sense. I think I've helped him grow spiritually because he's observed me and my strong spirituality. We connect so highly on a spiritual level, but on every other level I don't think there's a chance. Thanks for your insight because it's enlightened me and relieved so much built up frustration.